Contemplating: Fandom

I don't think I'll share any more fandom rants with people. Heck, I don't think I'll write any more. Fandom has become such an oddly splintered place with little pockets of psychosis here and little pockets of goodness there that I'm finding it more and more difficult to think of "fandom" as a single creation with (really) any single, overriding commonality.

Plus which, I'm just kind of over whining about the idiots. The idiots will always be with us. All one can do is ignore them and disinfect the furniture after they come to call.

Contemplating: BtVS

How can I be so madly, passionately obsessive about Spike and have no desire to read/write any stories about him? This is my second go-round with SpikeLove and neither time have I had the slightest urge to jump into the "fandom" and read.

It's a new kind of fannishness for me. Or, maybe an old kind. A return to the days, so long ago, when I knew nothing of this thing called fandom and life was worth living anyhow.

I have no particular objection to the idea of licking him all over, quite the opposite, but I've no desire to read about it. I rather suspect that's because I don't see him with slash eyes.

I just don't see Spike relating to the guys on the show that way. I think he is slashable. I just don't think anyone on BtVS worked with him. Can't see the spark.

So...maybe I don't feel any desire to jump into BtVS fandom because I'm not a het-story fan and I can't see the slash?